Start at the beginning...When I originally got accepted into college my first thought was, "what on earth do I want to be" (this seems to be a pretty normal response). I decided I want to be a Pharmacist I was fairly good at Chemistry in high school so this seemed to be a perfect fit. My first year in college I did well...but college chemistry is nothing like high school chemistry ha (go figure)..I decided to go meet with a counselor in the pharmacy department...needless to say I left crying and never looked back again. This is when I decided maybe nursing was what I wanted to be. I knew I wanted to do something medical related just wasn't quite sure which route I wanted to take. Luckily most medical related degrees have fairly similar pre-req's so this was going to give me time to figure it out... I had gone through 3 years of pre-req's and was ready to apply to the nursing program! I was so excited to send it in and be finally moving in a positive direction with a light at the end of the tunnel...In October is when they send back your results via email as to whether or not you were accepted or not...Needless to say in the middle of my class I got the rejection email...which basically said sorry you were not chosen please look further into other degrees that ISU has to offer... Now being a newby to the whole application process...this email seemed a little blunt and basically I took it as you suck and nursing is not the right path for you....SO I dropped out of college for a semester to collect my thoughts..I didn't have any idea what the hell I was going to do with my life. Luckily, I HATED being out of school so that summer, I had saved up 1800$, to go to summer school and I was going to give this nursing thing one last shot! I brought my GPA by .4 points which is a significant amount and now I was not just going to apply to ISU I was also going to apply to BSU. I got my second rejection letter from ISU during my O Chem class while the 8 other students I study with all got in. I politely excused myself and cried for at least 3 hours. I had worked so HARD!!! I got a part time CNA job to gain experience, to help further my application. Nothing was working.
Yet again, I took a semester off to see if maybe I could just be a CNA for the rest of life and this was all I was ever going to be. HA! that lasted a whole month and I decided there was no way I could only ever be a CNA. I was meant to do more. How embarrassing though to be given 2 rejection letters and now have wasted 5 years of college.
I always knew the Associate program was an option but I thought I would be to embarrassed after all the school I have had to just only be getting an Associate... I have told very few people that I have been applying to CSI and CWI. I was so embarrassed that I was going to have to be going to a community college that only my best friends and family knew about it.
I had received this email letting me know that I am ranked in the Top 5 at CSI for the nursing program and I was so ashamed to have decided to possibly attend this school that I kept it a secret (except of course to my friends and family) But I have decided something....All those rejection letters has just made it that much more important for me to become a nurse. I may not be able to take the normal route but dammit I am going to get there and I am going to be proud of the accomplishments I have made even if it is not the BSN program!!
"Be grateful for all the obstacles in your life. They have strengthened you as you continue your journey"
"Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond to it"
" One of the happiest moments ever is when you feel the courage to let go of what your can't change"
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