I have not been a religious one in the passed, quite frankly I was probably more anti religion than anything else. When I started dating Phillip back in 2006 he had encouraged me to go to church with him and I loved it but was afraid to tell anyone because my family is so anti. Although my family was not for the religious thing I really enjoyed it and secretly was excited to go to church with him whenever I could. When he and I ended it I gave up on the whole idea of being Christian and going to church. I would like to say that I have always maintained faith. While I may not have been a church goer I did believe that miracles could happen without anybodies help, except for perhaps a higher power, but I had no idea about anything else.
With everything that has happened to my family in the passed 6 months I had really been considering going back! I was terrified, nervous, anxious, excited (pretty much every emotion you can think of). Then came to the point which church do I go to?? Do I want to go alone? How well will it fit into my life style? All of these questions somehow managed to help the procrastination process. A friend of mine Tara was going to a Christian church in Inkom and I knew if I wanted to start going in Pocatello she would be willing to go, so of course I asked. This answered the questions as to whether or not I wanted to go alone and the answer was HELL NO! Now to find a church, she had heard that Rocky Mountain Ministries had services and they were more modern and "come as you are" kind of church, which sounded like it would fit me to a tee. So we decided to put aside the fear of going and just go! Our first Sunday turned out really well, everybody was extremely nice and more than welcoming!I felt incredible I knew that I was missing something and whether or not this filled that void is still predetermined but the fact that I felt better is certainly a start.
I am not one for preaching and loath when people try to push there religion on you or discuss with you there religious view when you could really care less. I always felt like they were trying to make themselves sound better and make you second guess the way of life you have chosen. So please while reading the rest of this blog post do not get the impression that I am trying to encourage you to be Christian or make my life seem somehow better than yours, I just want to share what I have learned this passed Sunday because it so helped with what I will be facing in the next couple weeks and just maybe it will help one of you!
This Sundays service was all about dealing with troubled times and man do we all face troubled times and sometimes it takes the best of us and brings us to our lowest points. Sometimes in life you feel alone and while something to consider is that while you may be standing all by yourself you are never alone. When our pastor said these words it really stuck with me because I can think of many times when I felt that I could go no further and how I was alone in this whole situation. What a comforting feeling to know that I was never alone and never have to feel that way again. John 14:27 " Peace I leave with you, my peace I give with you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
While I may be completely brand new to this I left church this Sunday with a sense of peace and comfort and this week I have some big steps that I have to take and somehow I left that Sunday afternoon without a care in the world, knowing things will work out.
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